Monday, July 23, 2007

肯定

步入四十岁,最近常问自己:“是否有必要重新肯定自己从上帝那里所得着的呼召?”哈!早在一九九二年左右,上帝所给予我的呼召是通过绘画来见证他...但近来我却常想:“或许他会希望我能以另外一种新的方式来见证他也说不定...?”

或许他会希望我进入教会工作,成为一名全职员工?(当然,所谓“全职员工”并非指“牧师”一职,请别误会。我所属的那间教会有十五千名会众,所以有各个
不同的工作岗位。)

我祷告...要他给予我正确的方向。

Series - #01 The Timeless David, Ink & Acrylic On Canvas,


哈!哈!他在很短的时间内便回应了我星期三早上所作出的祷告。中午时我便接到了一通朋友Miss‘K’的电话,透过电话她要求我隔天让她观赏我近几年来的绘画作品...。

第二天,即是星期四中午,我们在市区一间餐厅见面,她对我的一些作品相当有兴趣...。当晚,我便电邮了几幅作品给她,并附上售价表...。

星期五她便告知我她决定要买下我的三件作品。

Series - #03 The Timeless Thomas, Ink & Acrylic On Canvas,


哈!哈!事情发展到这里,我已心有所悟。其实上帝已经提供了答案给我,即是藉着让我售画来勉励我继续朝着绘画的目标前行,非但如此,还将祝福加给我。

还能说什麽呢?感谢他!在我对前景的发展有些许的不肯定时,他给予我肯定。

神永远是爱我的,愿一切的荣耀都归给他。

False Teachers, Ink On Paper,

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Child Head, Adult Body



Ha! Ha! Hopefully I can live as illustrated in the above “Child Head, Adult Body” image forever!

Recently, I began to realize what life is about. Hee! The answer is “Being A Happy Person”! That’s all! Right? I remember in my carefree childhood days, I had enjoyed my friends’ company, played with them - catching, fishing, joking… When I went to secondary school, I joined the scouts, went camping with my classmates…etc; later I also joined art club - enjoyed drawing and watercolour painting, copied great masters’ paintings to learn their skills …; I even found pleasure talking to my school teachers.

After my ‘O’ level exams, I went to art school to do my three-year fine art course. I got to know a lot of friends there who had the same target as me – to become a full-time artist. We learnt painting from one another (besides from the lecturers), encouraged those who felt depressed, and ever dreamt of furthering studies overseas together, becoming a ‘somebody’ in future…

After studies, I went to National Service, made friends, talked a lot…; Then working life started from the day I finished NS. I have great joy whenever my Pay Day comes, and occasionally even have the privilege to have lunch with my boss! I also manage to hold painting exhibitions, sell my paintings, and enjoy the fruits of my labour…

On Sundays, I go to church with my wife, and bask in God’s blessings! Amen! When Monday comes, I am recharged and back to my jobs again - enjoy teaching, doing illustrations & paintings; have entertainment such as: watching movie, listening to CDs, travelling… I have even started collecting toys recently to entertain myself. Ha!Ha! But human relationships come first. As years go by, I have also learnt how to love my wife and appreciate her company more and more each day... Eventually I find that in all these things that I do, I am seeking for the one thing – “Happiness!”

However, at times my emotions do go up and down - worry about my future, afraid of not having enough for this and that, worry that I cannot be a good husband…, and end up not having a fully happy Christian life.

Fortunately, God opened my eyes recently and reminded me that I should cast all my cares unto Him, and live a carefree and let-go life. When I received this revelation from God, I began to cast all my problems to Him, and then slowly, I discovered that a lot of problems became “lesser weight”; For some, I even did not see them as problems anymore! Meanwhile, I also realize that as a Christian, I should guard my heart, let it be “child-like”! (child-like + faith = Child-like Faith, which God commends) I believe I can slowly let go of my worries and problems day by day, because God is my faithful Provider for all my needs, just as He provided the “Manna” as food from heaven for His People in Exodus. I can indeed enjoy my daily life and become “A Happy Man”!

Note: All the white round objects in the above illustration represent “Manna”, not snow. Ha!